Slowly after quite some time, I flew again. Not as light as before when I am with my angel, I flew nonetheless. Each cloud that I step upon doesn’t seem soft like they used to be. The light reflected by the sky also seems to be so bright that I can’t see where I am going to clear enough. But I still flew.
Trying to find my direction and my destination itself, I kept gliding to the clouds. For the next days, I painted a smile on my face but deep inside me is the feeling that I was left behind and not enough to be with her.
Then one night, everything is turned around right in front of me.
It’s late yet I still tried to fly my way. In my tiring effort, I landed in a cloud and lied down, closing my eyes and taking deep breaths to regain my strength. Then in relief, I opened my eyes again and saw the sky. It’s night… but it’s bright.
The night sky filled with millions of stars is almost blue. They’re so beautiful that I felt like being invigorated with their beauty. My breathing is slowing down and my body seemed lighter. I locked my eyes on the stars and everything started to be clear again. The sadness that crawled down on me is washed in that instant. I can’t help it but a genuine smile appeared in my lips.
My angel might be beyond those stars and watches me… or she might be even one of them.
I was wrong when I thought that she left me for now I know that she’s never been with me… but doesn’t take away my belief that one day I can be where she is.
My strength by now might now be enough… to be an angel… or to be a star… but I just can’t give up. I stood up and looked around. The night is dark but the stars are bright enough for me to see everything in a clear view. The wind is also colder that it refreshes me in an unexplainable way. Even the cloud seemed softer now… as soft as they were before.
I’m going to where I should be. Not caring if she’s an angel or star, if she’s beyond those lights or not, I will pursue this flight.
And if one day I’ll be strong enough, I’ll ask the heavens to let her FALL from the sky like a shooting star and I’ll be right there to catch her as I cast my wish to be with her for the next days of my life.
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